October 25, 2005

Here is a rebus for Psalm 139:14...

I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Ah, the things we do for our kids. I worked on that rebus for Dancers's Awana section all afternoon. But it's cool to say the least. Just right click on it and open it in a new window to see the full picture.

I get the cool mom award today! I'm awarding to myself! Ha!

October 24, 2005

So the halloween stories were pretty silly... they should have used some stories from "Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark" but it was still cool. It was freezing out there.... good thing I keep blankets in the car.

They had pumpkin doughnuts and hot apple cider after it was over. It was a fun thing to do with Dancer. :)

So... I think I've finally found the curriculum I've been looking for. It's a classical approach and the children are responsible for their learning and it's very self-directed. I knew something like it existed out there... it just took some time to find it. It's called A2... http://www.hstreasures.com/

There's also RC and another one but they are more expensive but the websites still have very valuable information. http://www.robinsoncurriculum.com/ and http://www.greatbooksacademy.org/

I don't have much to talk about today. I've got to read up and see what's going on with the FED and the Greenspan switch. Maybe I'll have more to say tomorrow.

October 22, 2005

So I've completely dropped off the face of the earth.... NOT! Just haven't been to my blog like I should... shameful, I know.

Anyhow... there is no time to write much. Dancer and I are headed to listen to halloween stories around a campfire at Rock Springs. Just so all of you wayward friends of mine, who ditched the area (and I would have, had I not gotten preggo), there is LOTS of cool stuff to do around here. You've just got to know where to look and then get off your arse and get involved. :)-

Miss you all! I'll post more later.

September 13, 2005

I was doing so well with blogging on a regular basis and then our school year hit and it pretty much ceased.

Homeschooling is going great. The curriculum is good, just a mix of this and that. And swim lessons for homeschoolers started yesterday. Dancer will be starting French lessons soon, too. For those of you who went to high school with me you'll know the teacher.... Nancy. Her daughter Sabrina has been homeschooled her whole life. She's about 14 now. And she is a bi-lingual wonder.... the girl is involved in everything. She's in ballet and does tons of acting and is absolutely great at it. She has got to be one of the greatest kids I've ever met. The girl doesn't have personal limitations like so many of us put on ourselves. She puts her heart and soul into everything she does.

Anyhow, since Dancer has had some level of French since Kindergarten, Nancy doesn't have a problem with her being in the lessons. I'll learn/relearn a thing or two, too.

We're heading out to Dancer's ballet class soon. And I'm super hungry, so I'm done with the blogging for today.

August 26, 2005

I have the weekend off! I have the weekend off! WooHoo, I have the weekend off! Hey, did I mention, I HAVE THE WEEKEND OFF! :)

I've been doing lot's of house cleaning and decluttering. Just a few more weeks till we start our homeschooling work. I still don't have everything quite ready but it's getting there.

I need to get to bed so I can get up at about 12:30 and get some stuff done. I have more to say but no more time now. I guess I'll be back later.

August 22, 2005

Tonight was the first night of ballet. All through the bar exercises I kept thinking to myself "why am I doing this? why am I doing this? this sucks. this hurts. why am I doing this?" LOL. Anyway.... I can't wait for belly dancing to start in September.

Swim lessons start for Dancer sometime in September.... I need to make sure I have my schedule straight.

There's also a homeschool Hoe-Down on September 10th. Yes, you read that right a Hoe-Down....with BBQ and Square dancing.... do-se-do baby....swing your partner round and round. hehe. Too funny.

I got my room cleaned up today, under the bed and all. That was quite a nasty chore....mega dust bunnies. I'm headed to Lowe's tomorrow to get some wood to make some bookshelves. Does anyone know how to make a loft bed? Any suggestions are welcome! Cause we need one for Dancer so we can fit her desk in her tiny room.

Lots of stuff to do and so little time.

August 19, 2005

It's about 2 am and I'm going to get to bed soon, got to donate blood tomorrow at 12:30.

Dancer's been sick all week, poor thing, don't know exactly what she's got. Her temp is up and down throughout the day. My mom thinks we don't know how to take care of her (hmmmm, what's new.... my mom doesn't think I can do anything) so she's been giving her two cents. She thinks we need to take her to the doctor.... I don't think it's necessary and besides I'm sure it's some virus and antibiotics don't have any effect on viruses (hmmm... is that how you pluralize that? I was never any good at spelling, I need the homeschool as much as Dancer).

I got an item listed on ebay just a few minutes ago. A quantum leap pad book that we had doubles of. I found a pic of it already on the internet so I didn't have to wait and take pictures and go through the transfering them from the camera to the pc to the crop shop to photobucket.com to ebay. It can be a very time consuming project but I'll be hitting it heavy very soon.

2 minutes till 2 so I'm out of here.

August 18, 2005

I just got home from work. My back hurts so bad! I've got to call a chiropractor to find out how much the initial visit plus the exrays are going to cost... a wonderful couple at church said that they would pay for it.

Still working on getting homeschooling stuff ready. It's pretty much consuming my life right now. I put 2 bids in just a few minutes ago for Social Studies and Health books. They end at 10:30 and 11:30 and I won't be awake then so I hope I get them with the bids I placed.

I've got one more night of work tonight and then I've got the weekend off. I may be working Mon and Tues but Kohl's isn't for sure yet that they are going to get a truck in then. If I don't work I'll have a nice 5 day break.... yeah!

I'm thinking sometime in late Sept early Oct that it would be a good time to take a weekend away with Dodger. I'm looking at a few bed and breakfasts that are only a few hours away and don't cost an arm and a leg. I'd love to go back to the one we went to on our honeymoon but it's super $. The Round Barn Inn in McCordsville, IN. .... we stayed in the hayloft suite.... man, that king size bed was awesome! One day I'm planning on having a house big enough for a king size bed. It was so nice to just get away and just chill out. We pretty much vegged the entire time.... we did go out to eat one night. And the food that they fixed for breakfast.... OMG!.... AWESOME!

ok.... off to bed for me!

Pics of the Round Barn Inn...

Beautiful Place.

This was the main room. A living room with an extra bed and a pull-out sofa.
No cable TV but there was a VCR and some tapes to watch.

This was the bedroom. A king size bed. Totally heaven.
Both Dodger and I could stretch out in the bed and barely touch.

The hot tub that was in the bedroom.
We used it a few times.

August 17, 2005

The Newsong concert was absolutely awesome... I'm sad I didn't know about it early enough to get the night off. I missed the last part of the concert because I had to leave early.

I have about half of Dancers's curriculum planned out for the year... well half of it's typed up on quarterly planners. Still waiting on the Science book I ordered to get here and still have to bid on Social Studies and Health. I have to finish typing up Bible (have the first two quarters done), Math (in the process of hand writing that one before I type because I've got the text along with other worksheet... lots of sources so I want to make sure I get it all before I waste time typing and correcting), Reading (have the first 6 weeks planned.... starting with something other than the text), and get the Spelling words intered into this cool freeware that I found... it's a computer program that I can edit to fit my needs and Dancer will play it like a game). We're starting Sept. 5th so I'm getting as much done now as I can so it runs smoothly.

I joined the GHE last night. Saw a few people that I already knew homeschooled and a few people that I know that I didn't know were going to be homeschooling.

Dance lessons start next week... I've heard they're starting early because of the Farm Progress Show comming sometime in September (I think).... and the college will be closed during that time. Dancer is signed up for Ballet, Tap, and Jazz again...and I'm signed up for Ballet (going on my 5th year) and Belly Dancing (I'm so excited that they are offering it!) I may skip class next week because I've pinched a nerve in my leg (or at least I think that's the problem).... it's a few days away so we'll see.

Dancer went to VBS on Monday but then yesterday she had a fever and slept most of the day. She's still got a fever this morning so I don't know if she'll be going tonight. She'll be upset if she can't because she really likes it. It's at a church just down the road from us. She hadn't been able to go to any other VBS over the summer either because they were in the mornings (and I work nights so I don't stay up that late in the day) or they were in the evenings and swim lessons got in the way.... so when I saw that the little church down the road was having them this week, in the evenings, and swim lessons are over, I thought it was great.... but she's sick so that sucks.

It's almost 7am and I need to get to bed. Lots to do and I don't want to sleep the day away.

August 12, 2005

Dodger, Dancer and I went swimming at fairview pool last night after swim lessons....hehe....I locked the keys in the car with the windows up.... hey, it was starting to rain.

Thank goodness my friend Sarah was there with the kids. She had a wire coat hanger in her car so Dodger tried to unlock the door through the door seal but he couldn't get enough pressure on the auto knob so we all piled in her car to head to my house.... all of the windows have been locked since the incident with the big guy outside of the house in the bushy tree but we've got a broken window in my room that I put up cardboard on so I could install a window air conditioner.....we pushed in the bottom part and slid Dancer in so she could get the extra set of car keys.... and thank goodness Dodger forgot to lock the deadbolt on the front door cause my house keys were in the trunk of my car.

So they both stayed while Sarah drove me back to the pool to get my car. Jeez, I tell ya. She thought it was way funny cause she's done the lock the keys in the car so many times that her mom bought her 10 copies of her car keys to spread around at work, home, family members so if she did it again they wouldn't have to go to the dealer (which she's had to do a few times) to get a key made to unlock the door.

So anyhow.... we got Wing Stop for a late dinner and watched a funny movie called "Duplex".... it's got Ben Stiller and Drew Barrymore in it. It was on one of the encore stations.... see it if you have the chance.

I didn't get much sleep last night so I'm tired. I'll get a nap in after Dancer heads to mom's later. They're going swimming and then to the State Fair tonight. I'm going to the Newsong concert tonight with Sarah, Dad, and Rhonda (my dad's fiance). Thanks for the tickets dad.

August 11, 2005

Been home from work for about 30 minutes... checked my email.... posted to my friends on eDiets.... and now I've come here to write in this silly blog thing.

So anyhow.... going swimming tonight at fairview pool. Dancer's last day of swim lessons for the summer is today....got to see how much swim lessons cost at the Y. Family swim night is after that....costs less to get in, not as many people as during the day, and it's a heck of alot cooler, and no sunburns!!!! woohoo!

10 minutes till 7.... so I'm going to bed so I can get up and do some stuff on my night off!

August 10, 2005

I've been in a bit of a funk lately. Really tired and sleep schedule way out of whack. Don't know what's up with that but I'm praying it goes away soon.

I'm getting Dancer's curriculum ready to start school in Sept. Yep, for those of you who don't know....I'm homeschooling starting this year. Dancer will be in 4th grade.

Dance is starting in a few weeks....and they are supposed to have Belly Dancing classes this year but I can't get a straight answer out of anyone when I call. I guess I'm just going to have to drive out there and see what's up with it. I'm excited to get back to ballet.... I'm determined to nail a fouetté turn this year! I am damn-it! I'm 30 and fabulous!

August 06, 2005

Another night at work done and over with. I should be in bed by now but I'm here playing around with this stupid friendster thingy.

I went to walmart after work and picked up a copy of Looking Good Now magazine. The chick on the cover is an online friend of mine. So if you're hanging around in the magazine isle sometime look for the August issue. I picked up a copy for an online friend in France so I need to send her an email to get her address.

I'm going to go send that email now and then get to bed.

August 05, 2005

Just home from work. I'm going to pay a bill and then get to bed. Dancer is getting her hair cut today and going to ride rides at the Celebration with Dad.

crying out {haiku}

where are you my Lord

sit with me in my darkness

my fear overwhelms

support {haiku}

where is the support

my family never shows

self-doubt looms again

Faith...

• to walk out of my self-confinement and into the Lord's waiting arms
• to trust my gut and not my feelings
• to follow through with actions
• to walk through the fire
• to look past the fear
• to trust without reservation
• belief in the positive

February 12, 2005

 Accept...

Funny work that is...

p. 4 Voices of Recovery

Who do I not accept just as they are right now? The one who deserves acceptance the most. If I can't accept hem, how will he ever believe that God accepts him just as he is.

I must study, meditate, and pray on acceptance.

February 10, 2005

Today's reading in Voices of Recovery (p. 41) was exactly what I needed to hear. I've been worried and scared about homeschooling and being able to make enough money to support us at the same time.

"Why fear strikes my heart, I remember that fear and faith cannot dwell in the same place at the same time."

"When I hear myself or other people, places, or things, it reminds me to concentrate on faith."

"For me, that means more surrender, more prayer, and more meditation."

"It's so easy to quit when you're in the middle. When you're in the middle, temptations are great." - Starting Over

Fear has always held me back. I've never felt adequate. So, I never finish what I start.

I am not a quitter! No more, ever again!

Saturday Judgement

 Wow, it's been a crazy week on the team chat. Everyone feeling judged and pushed by Christy's words, especially me with what was said in our emails. She did finally see how she came across with the help of her husband and from Kelley.

Why did her judgements bring that out in me? Though I reacted well until the last email...where that time it was more of a 'how dare you judge me; you don't know me or my history.'

Judgements hurt...Why? Because I'm judged most by the people who should just accept me for who I am. Pain from the attitudes and judgements from my mom and her side of the family. Being them...I would have retreated, binged (most likely), and said nothing.

With Dodger...I would have been screaming at the top of my lungs that 'you don't ever LISTEN to what I say. I mean what I say and say what I mean. I'm not playing any games...Just Listen to Me.'

My anger is safer to let out with Dodgers...or is it? I don't let it out well at all.

I haven't been very pleasant to be around lately. I haven't been binging or abusing food...haven't been eating my triggers. So what do I do with the feelings? What do I do with the anger? What do I do with the scariest one of all, the rage?

Well, it just came to me...I could give it go God. Because he can handle it; I can't right now. I internalize so much. I've always been keyed into emotions that way. Feeling other people's pain hurts me. Yet helping others helps me; it helps me heal.