These Nights

these nights are so lonely without you

if only I could be with you

this pain would go away

my mind is filled with thoughts of you

I wish I could be with you

I want to be with you forever

every minute of every hour you are on my mind

I miss you

I'm in pain

tears fall

I promise I will love you forever

we are a powerful force and forever will be

What if

what if you ever left me

what would I do

you say you'll always love me

you say you'll never hurt me

but things happen

you could lose interest in me

you could stop loving me

you could find someone else

what would I do

what if you started to have doubts about us

what would I do

I've learned that all good things

come to an end

I don't want this to be that way

I believe you love me

I'm just afraid you'll turn away

like everyone else

I'm used to being used and abandoned

so I guess I could take it another time

Away

he's taken you away from me

my best friend is gone

we used to be a pair

nothing could tear us apart

we used to have this force when we were together

now I'm just second-hand news to you

I want it like it was before him

we were just fine with just two on our team

but I think you quit and started a new team with him

you're so distant from me now

I want my best friend back

I feel so abandoned

I feel so betrayed

please listen to me

I've never felt so much pain

In the Dark

something is moving in the dark

I can feel it next to me

I can't see it

touch it

it's presence is surrounding me

it's dead

like the corpse I had seen

on the bed earlier that day

just there face down in the sheets

my life is like the corpse

my soul the sheets

problems to big to face

I hide in the dark

will it steal me away from the darkness

or

will it take me deeper in

it takes me in its arms

the blood drains from my limp body

now I must lie on the bed

face down in the sheets

for some lost soul to find me

on its journey for peace

Lost You

yes I have lost you

I have tried

to find even a thread

of hope

of love

of anything

anything that would show me you care

I have written poems

about you

for you

just you

is this my last

I don't know

I still love you

I have cried

for myself

for you

for love

I don't know why I do it

the world is so cruel to me

you are cruel to me

it sickens me

that I still think good of you

think of you

even love you

yes my dear you have taught me

and taught me well

that when the heart is

ripped

broken

crushed

blood stains

the heart dies

and is given no more

Life

life is only what you make of it

it is only what you want it to be

don't blame anyone else for your

problems or mistakes

they are only as big as you make them

take advantage of what you are given

the first chance may be the last

if you try you will succeed

you are only given only one life

don't waste it

don't look back years from now

and wish you had done it differently

Turmoil

mental turmoil

suicide

blood

comes death

for love

I would die

for hate

I would scream

for you

anything

Bleed for You

do I love you

yes I do love you

am I in love with you

yes I'm in love with you

could I live without you, yes

do I want to live without you, no

I chose you over all the others

that makes you the most special

in the world, I guess

you have grown in me, you are in me

you have shown me things I had never known

I do not speak for fear you do not love me

wait

do not go on

let me have the courage to speak

if you love me give me that courage

I bleed for you

I am torn

Forgotten

have you forgotten

how you said you loved me

I know you think

I've found someone else

it's not true

I'm sure I could never love anyone

but you

you are on my mind

night and day

but I'm never sure

what it is I should say

I love you

I need you

I want you

so would you please tell me

how you feel about me

Give Up

to give up a lover

is one of the hardest things to do

I am constantly reminded

that he is not there

I still love him

I always will

but I had to do it

for me

giving up a lover

is so hard

so hard to do

Worth

so what am I worth

can you answer me that

see I don't know

can you please tell me

could you buy me with money

am I priceless

I really need to know

will I ever feel

that I am worth something

No Good

I'm not good for anything

I'm nothing special

no one is proud of me anymore

they are always finding my faults

telling me about them

they think I don't want to change

I do

I try

but when I'm good for nothing

why should I care

no one is telling me I could be a model

no one is telling me I could be a singer

or an actress

or a musician

I'm not important

nothing I do will have any effect

I hate myself

I despise myself

I'm not worth anything

so why am I here