I am a part of this wonderfully supportive online group of women. When everyone else is being "bah humbug" and negative, these women are always sharing positivity and love.
Yesterday, I listened to one of them give her last online radio show for Hay House. Her shows have always been great but this one was so spectacular. I'm in an inner space right now where the inner gnawing is coming to the surface and I'm inclined to really listen this time.
Dancer is getting older and will be starting college next fall. Being a "housewife" isn't all that fulfilling to me, even though I have developed a decent love for housework... except the toilet cleaning! Ick.
It's time to break open the dam and let my creativity take hold again. I need to surround myself with creative people and spaces again. I used to work around it all the time before needing to change jobs because of Dancer's dance schedule. Then I worked at a place that not only sucked the creativity out of me but also started to take my health. I still, to this day, have a serious back problem from that last job.
I also want a way to help financially support my family that uses my creative energy without working for someone else again. I refuse to have anyone else dictate my time and my life ever again. It would take a serious financial hardship to get me to set foot in retail again or to have anyone tell me when I have to work and what days I can or cannot have off.
So right now, I'm working on getting quiet and really listening to my inner callings. I need to listen and then get out of my own way so that it can flow.
