Confidence in God

"I am confident that God will fulfill my needs. Some days I have the "I wants," and I pray and meditate on it." - Seeking the Spiritual Path

I have many "I wants," and today it is to have a good time with family for Easter dinner. Family is always tough for me...lots of triggers and past hurts involved in every conversation. Today, I am confident that God will fulfill my need to stay abstinent, both in food and in emotional sobriety. I am confident in my relationship with God today, and I know God is in everything...every situation...and has not abandoned me. God knows me, through and through, and today I am open and leaning into Him as the day progresses and listening for the still small voice of reason and love. The beautiful thing about prayer is that no one else has to know I'm doing it in the moment, and I can act within the boundaries I have in place in my life around food and around behaviors. I am in such appreciation that I have God in my life today, running things and giving me life, instead of feeling constantly alone and running my life into the ground.