back on track

I'm off to a family birthday party in a few hours.  This is my last day off from logging and exercise.  Tomorrow, I'm not putting up with my own crap any longer.  I don't care how much bitching and moaning my inner-crybaby does, I'm getting back on track.  The real me wants to be back on track.

Get a Grip

Ugh.  I just got on the scale and it said 178!  Damn it.  I had already decided that after the birthday party tomorrow that I was back to logging and exercising full-tilt but I had no idea that my weight would shoot up so much in one week.  I logged my food half of this week and was within budget on those days.  I'm so frustrated with my lack of being able to focus on one major area of my life at a time.  I've heard that there's no such thing as balance in life, but dang, there's gotta be someway to get it all in everyday!!!

I was also supposed to focus on my room this week.  It's not a huge mess but I haven't done crap with it at all.  The homeschool support group thing has been pulling at my time but that's still no excuse.  I've really got to get my organizational system in place.  I've got too many things that are important to me that I NEED to GET DONE.

Ok.  Rant over!

homeschool support group stuff

Ugh. I've spent nearly all day working on homeschool support group stuff!  Although I sent out a survey yesterday afternoon asking our membership if they would prefer Groupsite or Yahoo Groups to have our online community communications, I think we are going to end up going with Big Tent.  Big Tent has nearly everything that Yahoo Groups does, their email communication works the same way, and it has so much more for us there.

So most of my day has been messing around with the settings on Big Tent, reading back and forth emails between board members, and I even got a Google Voicemail number set-up for us.  It's a long distance number, which kind-of stinks, but it has our group name spelled out in the numbers which is pretty cool.

Now it's 1:30 am.  I got very little done in the kitchen today.  I will be getting to bed around 2, so that I can kick butt on the kitchen tomorrow and make-up for what I was wanting to do today.  Next week the focus is on my bedroom, so I want my kitchen to be at a decent clean/decluttered level before my week ends.

harboring deep hidden love for someone else

Sometimes you swear you could get knocked over by a feather.  How does someone go through hell and back with their spouse ... swear by an active sex life ... and then end up harboring some deep hidden love for someone other than their spouse?  Wild... I am truly shocked and I rarely get shocked. [Dena]

As for me, I enjoy the ups and downs of my relationship with Dodger.  Sometimes we go through rough spots... we've been through our own hell and back, for sure... but over-all we've only grown more attached and more in-love with each other in the nearly 19 years of being together.  I still love the times when we obviously have the butterflies towards each other but I don't linger on those times wishing they would return.  I know they will.  It's just part of the ebb and flow.  :)

The food logging has been going well this week.  I've logged everyday... even if I went over my budget on those days.  I look forward to my weigh-in on Monday.

I've been avoiding posting

I've been avoiding posting.  It more or less has to do with having shared this blog with some people and now regretting it.  Maybe they'll stop reading it... IDK.  Sigh.

Anywho... I've been super busy, by choice.  But it's not the chaotic, crazy busy... it's a fullness of heart and mind and of hard work busy.  I've chosen to step-up and really take control of my house and the care of it.  I've never been suzy homemaker.  None of this homemaker stuff comes naturally to me at all.  Now that I'm not working and have taken months off to recover from 6 years of a job that gave me no joy, it's time to get to work.  I am expecting Dodger to step-up and work harder and longer to cover me not working.  I can no longer spend all day on the computer doing very little.  It's time to finally have a home out of this house.

I'm also back at logging my calories on the Lose It app.  Ever since Christmas, I've been wishy-washy with logging and exercise.  I haven't broken through the 170 lb mark yet and over the last few weeks a few pounds have crept back on.  In May, once I've given myself a month to attack the housework, I'll be adding a regular exercise routine back in.  I just got my taxes finished up this week, so now I'm able to fill out the renewal for the Y scholarship.  I want to just drop it for now but Dodger swears that he's going to use it if I renew it.